If you're feeling depressed or numb and can't seem to find the will or drive to strive for anything in life, there are several possible causes; as a result, you'll have to examine the options and see which causes and solutions resonate with you.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/what-to-do-if-you-dont-want-anything-in-life
You decide what meaning the events in your life have to you.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/you-can-find-meaning-in-whatever-happens-to-you
Asking where you see yourself in five years is a good exercise to determine both where you're going and what you want to be doing today to reach your desired future state.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/where-do-you-see-yourself-in-five-years