When searching for answers, make sure that you try to articulate what it is you're looking for so that you don't conflate concepts such as goals, ethics, belonging, etc. that can make it seem like you need to subscribe to someone else's rules or worldview to find purpose.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/what-you-need-in-a-meaning-of-life-book
You decide what meaning the events in your life have to you.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/you-can-find-meaning-in-whatever-happens-to-you
Asking where you see yourself in five years is a good exercise to determine both where you're going and what you want to be doing today to reach your desired future state.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/where-do-you-see-yourself-in-five-years