The problem with any behavior is whether someone unwillingly is harmed or pays the cost of another person’s behavior—not who benefits. Therefore, both selfishness and altruism can be bad if it someone else ends up being harmed or paying for it.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/non-consensual-harm-or-expense-vs-the-greater-good
You decide what meaning the events in your life have to you.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/you-can-find-meaning-in-whatever-happens-to-you
Asking where you see yourself in five years is a good exercise to determine both where you're going and what you want to be doing today to reach your desired future state.
https://yourmeaninginlife.com/blog/where-do-you-see-yourself-in-five-years